Tuesday, August 16, 2011
I don't blog much anymore. I kind of don't see the point now that I am on facebook all the time and all of Bailey's pictures are on there. But, lately I haven't blogged b/c the only thing to blog about is the new baby and I am SO fearful for NO reason that something is going to or already has happened to the baby. I'm afraid to even talk about it much. I SO want this baby! I know God blessed us with this baby and in my heart I really feel like I will be bringing home a baby near the end of February that is alive and healthy. I have just really started to stress often about the well-being of this baby and it makes me SO sad becuase I can't bond with it and I even try to avoid most things baby. That is so horrible. At 8 weeks, the baby looked AWESOME with a great heartbeat and measuring right on time. I have NO bleeding and no cramping and I even feel some fluttering sometimes. But, I'm only almost 12 weeks so I disregard that also. I feel so robbed of enjoying this pregnancy b/c I was told to terminate at only 7 weeks. I am getting HUGE and my regular clothes don't fit so I have NO reason to believe differently about the baby being fine. I have another ultrasound on the 26th and until then, I pray for peace.
Posted by Melody at 12:53 PM