Wednesday, April 27, 2011

I caved

I went ahead and called in my clomid. After talking with some friends, I have decided to take it days 3-7 instead of days 5-9. I also found where you can buy guaifenesin tablets. This is the ingredient in robitussin that is supposed to help cervical mucous. So, I will try this. Also, when I take the clomid on days 5-9 it makes me ovulate SO late. I've read more success stories on days 3-7. Except... I'm not really sure when I should count day 1. The doctors office says start with the first day of spotting but for me, that would make my cycles 10 days long. Anyway, I'll figure it out.

I'm very stressed out lately as well. Even though I'm a teacher, I still get paid through the summer. Basically, they take our 9 month pay and spread it out over the summer so that we don't feel destitute by the end of summer. But, my husband doesn't get paid in the summer because, even though he works for the school district, he is not a certified teacher. He is paid hourly. Therefore, we BOTH HAVE to teach summer school in order to get through the summer. I will admit that I really don't mind doing this because it's only 16 days and I make 20 dollars an hour which equals about 1800 dollars after taxes. Still, by the time mid July/August rolls around, we are out of money! The money that we make during summer school is NOT enough to get us comfortably through the summer. So, when we got our taxes this year, we put 2000 in our savings account. We totally planned on saving it for summer. Guess what? It's over half gone! We are expecting a small amount of money (about 500 dollars) in a few weeks for some work Zach did throughout the school year that will be paid as a stipend. But, basically, I have lost ALL hope of having any money left by the time summer comes! I know this is a little irrational and I also know where all of our money went last summer that kept us from having any. I also know that we did survive but not without missing a house payment and having to make arrangements to get it made up (which we are STILL doing). I have spent almost ALL of the past 6 years stressing about money and when I say something I get SO mad when people say 'Oh, I understand" when I KNOW they really don't. Have you ever honestly had to make the decision between gas in the car and taking your child to the doctor? I have! Or, donating a dollar to your work for a good cause or buying milk? I have done that too. Zach gets really mad at me and I hope he doesn't read this b/c he doesn't see things the same way I do. But, I am TOTALLY prepared to get a job in July if I have to!

3 comments:

The Anglin Family said...

oh, melody....

yes, I really do get it. i have been in those situations before. and yes, its hard when youre married and you dont see eye to eye. i need a job and cant find one. i may have to suck it up and get a job at old navy or something. im always praying for you. its just not easy.
and, you should count your first day of spotting.
Much love, my friend..here if you need me!!

Rachel said...

I have actually been there too. I've had to call and cry to hospitals and clinics and say I cannot pay anything this month, because... My husband was laid off last summer for 4 months...it was awful. And now with gas prices going up it does not help either.

Some how though it all seems to work out in the end. I find we just go with no extras and I live off of the pantry / freezer for a week or 2 and we make it.

Know that I'm praying for you and "all your irons in the fire"...

Rachel said...

Aw...thanks for your sweet comment back...

I hope that one day I can learn to be a better saver...maybe when I "grow-up"...I'll keep you posted, but don't hold your breath...

Enjoy the rest of the week.