Frustrated

Well, not that you haven't already read this on facebook but, we still don't know what the baby is.  It was a horrible experience and the baby looks good and is doing well, we just don't know what it is.  I literally cannot talk about it without crying HARD.  Zach's mom is paying for a 3D ultrasound for us and I am grateful for that.  I've basically been crying since our appointment.  We have a lot of other things going on right now and I know that it's worse for me b/c I'm pregnant but I really could use some prayers!

On Birth and Cloth Diapers

First of all, I hope not to offend anyone but I'm annoyed.  I HONESTLY do not understand people who want to have their babies at home or are SO obsessed with having a natural delivery.  It's really annoying.  There are definitely things I have done as a mom that go against the medical profession for normal!  For example, we did NOT have quad testing done on either of our babies.  WHY would I?  I guess if Zach or I had some disorder/disease that was harmful we might but I just don't find the extra worry necessary during pregnancy.  We also opted not to give Bailey ALL of her imunizations.  As teachers, we both work with autism every day.  It's never been 100% proven that immunizations cause Autism but I also wanted to do whatever I could to limit the chances of my child getting it.   This is also why I avoid ALL seafood (tuna included) when I am pregnant.  But, people who preach about having babies with no medication are just nuts!  If you don't HAVE to put your body through that then why do it?  I feel the same way about those cloth diaper freaks!  The ones who act like if you don't use cloth diapers then your baby will most certainly grow up with a never-ending butt rash.  I'm not saying either is wrong (cloth diapers or natural childbirth) I just get annoyed with those people who act like it's the ONE and ONLY option.

Dr. Appointment (update)

*UPDATE*:  The hospital called this morning and scheduled my gender ultrasound for Monday afternoon.  I am SERIOUSLSY excited!

I had another OB appointment yesterday at 3:30.  This was re-scheduled from last Friday's appointment that was supposed to be at 2:50 because my doctor was delivering a baby.  When I got there about 3:05 yesterday (yes, I'm anal about getting there early) they said "Oh, the doctor is over at the hospital doing a delivery, do you want to re-schedule or wait?"  I said that since this was already a re-scheduled appointment I wanted to wait.  I'm so glad I did!  The nurse went ahead and called me back took my vitals and weight UGH!  I was really scared but I've only gained 4 pounds and if you've seen my pictures I am huge!  So, that is good!  About 4:10 the doctor came back.  Since they had cancelled all of her other appointments I was first in line!  YAY!  Of course it was just a normal check-up.  But, Baby's heartbeat was 141.  And I asked her lots of questions about some strange symptoms I'm having and she said her guess is that baby is a boy and everything I'm experiencing is normal.  So that's good.  We also put in the referral for my big gender ultrasound and the nurse said I can do it next week if the hospital has any openings.  I CANNOT WAIT!!!! :)

Sister, puppy, and the 17 week bump

This is a video of Bridget chasing Bailey.  All you can hear is me talking and it's fuzzy from my not-so-awesome cell phone but still cute! :)

And this is the 17 W 2 D baby bump.  I have an undershirt on today so you can see the bottom of it which is why it looks a little funny.  (Oh, and I wanted to say that this is Bailey's mirror) :)  That's why it's so dirty!  She loves to look at herself, lol.

17 weeks

No picture today.
I have been a little down because when the baby was still low in my pelvis I could almost always feel it moving around.  Now that it's moved about half-way up my belly I haven't been able to feel it for a week.  But this morning I have been able to feel it again and it's a WONDERFUL feeling.   We listen to little Estes every day and it's so funny because sometimes it will kick and you can hear it on the heart monitor even though I can't always feel it.  I also think it's very interesting (and maybe it's still coincidence) but I read that during this week the baby can start to hear voices and typically dad's first b/c it's deeper.  Yesterday while we were listening to it, Zach was talking to him/her and it REALLY started going nuts.  I couldn't feel it but you could really hear it kicking on the monitor.  I don't know how to explain what it sounds like unless you've used a fetal heart monitor before b/c it obviously doesn't sound like someone kicking a door down, lol.  It's more like a swooshing noise but it's very loud.  I can't wait until daddy and big sister can feel the baby move.  Bailey just LOVES that she is going to be a big sister and I am SO excited!  I will take a picture in my skirt tomorrow and probably post some pics of sister too.  I have a cute video of her playing with the new puppy and hopefully I can get it to load. 

Want to know the sex of the baby?

SO DO I!  Tomorrow, I have my 16/17 week appointment.  I hate my due date, lol.  I don't know why I care so much but I just wish she would move it by just FOUR days.  I'll be 17 weeks on Sunday.  So, we should schedule my Ultrasound at tomorrow's appointment.  We are all really anxious.  When we found out we were having Bailey we both really wanted a boy.  I just thought it would be fun to have a boy first becuase I have no brothers.  I just thought a boy could be the older/protective brother.  But, I honestly thought Bailey was a girl.  I never wanted to admit it though.  When we found out for sure she was a girl I could not have been happier.  So, this time I still don't care.  I did!  At first I was scared that this baby might be a boy but now I really don't care.  I really want to know though.  We are all really anxious.  So, what do you think?  BABY BLUE or PRETTY PINK?

Something Special

I was in the grocery store on Monday night and the FIRST person I saw was this adorable little Asian woman who was about 7 months pregnant.  Of course, who am I to guess how far along someone is.  I'm only 4 months and look about 10.  Either way, in that moment, I realized that there is something special about seeing a pregnant mommy and not feeling sorry for yourself because it's not you.  I felt so blessed in that moment to have this baby growing inside of me.  Even if I want to throw up every day and I have no energy.  I am still SO happy to have another baby and to give my daughter a sibling. 

Then, my heart hurt thinking about my friends who haven't experienced this but want to so badly.  Infertility is a sad reality for so many people and that makes me sad.  I pray for my friends and hope their babies come soon.