Well, there are only 9 more days of school. Honestly, it feels like 39. I don't know why but this school year is DRAGGING on. I have been under a LOT of hidden stress lately and I'm not good at keeping it under the radar. I was in charge of the awards assembly at our school. We have over 1200 students! It was a lot of fun but it was A HUGE stress to me. However, when it was over, Tuesday night, I felt GREAT! I was so glad it was over and so happy that I had pulled it off. I had help! Don't get me wrong, I could not have done it without the people on my "committee" but it was a lot more work than I had anticipated. About 300 of our 1200 students received awards and we had a great turn out.
The end of the school year is so busy and I've noticed that Zach and I have less, and less, and less time together. I'm very angry about it. I know that sounds silly but it's not like I have even 5 friends that I can go out with and do things so he's really all I have unless I'm at work. We love spending time with Bailey but she sleeps with us. So, even at night when we go to bed we don't get to talk or cuddle or anything. I honestly feel like I'm about to have a breakdown. Physically I feel completely overwhelmed. I don't feel like my existence matters though I know that's not true. Don't you ever have that "I want someone to love me" feeling? I just want school to be out so that I will have ONE thing off my plate.
Oh, then in June summer school starts and it honestly terrifies me to teach 1st graders. I know, how silly. SO, we'll see how that goes.