The last one!

So, today was the last day of school and in case you think you read that wrong I am going to write it again.

T O D A Y W A S T H E L A S T D A Y O F S C H O O L!!!!!!!!!

Now, I'm not trying to be overly excited or anything but I'm not gonna lie. I am PUMPED! However, it is short lived because summer school starts on Monday. However, it's extra money and I only work 8-12 so I'm pretty sure it's manageable. I had like 5 things to post about but the only one I can really remember is this...

TODAY ALONE, I found out that THREE of my friends are pregnant! Please pray that their pregnancies go well and that they all deliver healthy babies!

Now, I want some of that baby water!!!

OH WAIT! I do remember :)

I wanted to show these pictures of Bailey in her new frog pool! :)

WOW!

Yesterday, I was talking to a girl on facebook who I went to high school with, Christa is her name. We weren't really good friends in high school because she was a year younger than me and we didn't know each other very well. But, then we both started working at this place:

It's an ice cream shop kind of like a dairy queen only better! It's in Siloam Springs, Arkansas, where I grew up. Anyway, when I was talking to Christa yesterday, I found out that she now lives THREE miles from me and I thought that was SO neat because Zach and I live in Oklahoma now. She also told me all about her little girl, BAILEY who is 19 months old! How weird is that? So, we have planned a playdate next week for our "Baileys" to play! :)

In other news, I received a package in the mail yesterday. It was the ONLY thing in the mailbox and the return address had been covered up by the post office. I knew what it was though and I was SUPER excited to get it! Want to know what it was and how to get your own? CLICK HERE
I don't think I'm ever going to take it off! I really love it! THANKS GIRLS!

And last (and least, haha)
I JUST started watching Jon and Kate + 8 again. I watched the season finale last season and then I watched the season premiere on Monday night. I was VERY sad to see how bad their marriage has become. Don't get me wrong, I have ALWAYS thought that Kate is the biggest (excuse me, please) B****. She is horribly rude to her husband, the babysitter, the crew, and pretty much everyone she comes in contact with. However, something really upset me about the fact that they might get divorced. Even though I've never met them, Kate actually makes me a little uncomfortable! She is SO rude that I feel embarrassed for her sometimes. Still, though, they do have 8 (well 7, Mady is kind of spoiled and "tantrum-ish") adorable children. I keep asking myself "why do you care so much?" All I know is that they have exploited themselves, their children, their home, and their community. We have seen SO much of them and it's just sad that it all might end. How sad for their precious children, how sad for my friend Meredith who just can't get enough ;), how sad that as Kate said I thought we could rise above that and beat the divorce rate for parents of multiples. (by the way that is NOT her EXACT quote). Anyway, If Jon is cheating on her he is a HORRIBLE man and if she were not so downright rude, maybe things would be better. I just don't understand how someone can want to control EVERYTHING. Still, I prayed for them last night because I imagine everyone wants to talk about them but no one wants to do anything (considering 9.8 million people watched Monday's show). So, I just asked God to restore their marriage to what it should be for them, and their babies! I have also wondered... is this all for publicity???

Toodles... I think I've made this QUITE long enough :)

Answers

Well, I've debated posting this because so many of you have other things going on and it seems that all of us have "issues" lately! But then I got to thinking... this is my blog and after all of my "I hate my life" posts, you all deserve to know what's wrong with me, haha.

But, before I go on, I do want to say a HUGE Congratulations to Ashley who had her Beta yesterday and is going to be a mommy! Please pray that EVERYTHING goes well! I'm so happy for you Ash!

Ok, so Monday (and for a week or more before) I started feeling pretty bad. I've been getting really dizzy, extremely exhausted, and (as you've know from previous posts) EXTREMELY emotional. I HATE going to the doctor due to our current financial situation so I do whatever I can to keep from going. But, I couldn't take it anymore. I called the doctor and told them I needed to make an appointment. They worked me in on Tuesday afternoon (due to a cancellation). My appointment was a 2:00. It was a HORRIBLE afternoon. First, I had to find someone to cover my last class because school isn't out until 2:15. Then, when I got to the doctor I waited 50 minutes in the waiting room. I FINALLY got called back into a room and waited another 2 hours to see the doctor! Mind you, this ENTIRE time I was sitting in a hospital gown because it was time for my "ever~so~fun" yearly check as well. So, I'm sitting there waiting, naked, and I almost left because it was RIDICULOUS to wait that long...
Anyway, the doctor came in and we talked about all of my symptoms. My progesterone is still very low and so she changed my meds. She said my heart will continue to palpitate until my progesterone gets under control. I still have to take my Metformin and my Naproxin for pain during my cycles.
So, I was pretty upset because I just want to feel better. Then, I took my script to the pharmacy for my progesterone and the previously 5.00 prescription is now THIRTY dollars. That is completely out of the question! There is no way I can afford a 30 dollar per month prescription. I did contact the benefits office at work and they said it will continue to be 5.00 until July. So, I can at least take my meds until July. The only 2 cures for low progesterone: Using the cream, or getting pregnant! HAHA, I guess 30 a month is cheaper than pregnancy! So, there you have it. Maybe once I get my Progesterone back up I won't feel so completely horrible ALL the time!

A new day... Sunshine

OK, I realize my last post seemed a bit suicidal. That was NOT my intention. However, I do so appreciate your sweet comments. And believe me, I have tried EVERYTHING to get Bailey out of our bed. But, I think daddy needs a little weaning as well :). I am sure all 3 of us will go through some separation anxiety when she goes to her own bed for good. But I did have a talk with DH on Saturday and I feel better. Even just talking about how I was feeling makes things so much better. It was "hellish" trying to get my feelings out but once I did I felt better. So, on to more important things.

We accomplished much this weekend! Bailey "helped" (I have 5 pictures but for some reason when I'm at work things are funny on here and I can only get 2 of them to load).

We planted Marigolds around the mailbox (I'll have to post a picture later) and we planted lillies right in front of where Bailey is sitting in the above pictures. She was literally covered HEAD TO TOE in mud and had to be showered before she could get a bath. I'm not a huge fan of messes but I would MUCH rather her be an outside kid than an indoor kid so I will gladly wipe mud (plus I think it helps Zach feel like she is a bit of a tomboy, haha). Oh, and by the way, those cute white sandals she has on... MUDDY! So, I ran them through the dishwasher! Yep, you read right, the dishwasher and they are almost good as new... a mom's gotta do, what a mom's gotta do! :)

Yesterday, Zach fixed our front door so that it will close AND lock! Our house was built in 1954 (give or take a couple years). Zach and I have argued over it because the courthouse has one date and our realtor had another date. Either way, our house is old. It's darling, but old. So, it has some "issues" but we are doing our best to fix it up. We also painted around our windows that desperately needed painting. 3 years ago in March, we had new windows put in but because our house is so old they had to use wood to get the new windows to fit so here are before and after pictures of the windows. I really feel like we have a whole new house. It's amazing what a gallon of paint will do!

BEFORE

AFTER We are working on painting our white picket fence as well. Half of it is finished. I know, how cute that people still have picket fences, huh? LOL. Anyway, I will post pictures of all of it as soon as it is finished.

For Father's Day I got Zach some new landscaping lights (he LOVES landscaping lights). He was so funny Saturday night after putting them out. He wanted us all to get in the car and drive around the house to look at them. It was fine with me. I enjoy night drives and it is especially nice when Bailey falls asleep in the car (oh and before you ask, I TRIED very carefully and hard to put her in her own bed when we got home but she is smarter than me and was NOT having it). Zach also painted our mailbox yesterday. The house is really starting to look better. I feel like we are less "Ghetto." And I LOVE that! :) Thanks again for all of your sweet comments. I love you all so much.

And, last but most certainly NOT least... I wanted to ask all of you to stop by Tiffany's blog and grab a bracelet or key chain! Please read her story. This post is already so long so I don't want to go into a ton of detail or take away from her but she and her husband, Zach have been trying to have a baby for many years and are now going to be going to a fertility clinic. Her two GREAT friends have set up this fundraiser for her. The bracelets are too cute and you would be supporting a great cause! I'd like one in every color :). Tiff deserves to be a mom and I am hoping and praying for a blessing for them very soon.

9 more days

Well, there are only 9 more days of school. Honestly, it feels like 39. I don't know why but this school year is DRAGGING on. I have been under a LOT of hidden stress lately and I'm not good at keeping it under the radar. I was in charge of the awards assembly at our school. We have over 1200 students! It was a lot of fun but it was A HUGE stress to me. However, when it was over, Tuesday night, I felt GREAT! I was so glad it was over and so happy that I had pulled it off. I had help! Don't get me wrong, I could not have done it without the people on my "committee" but it was a lot more work than I had anticipated. About 300 of our 1200 students received awards and we had a great turn out.



The end of the school year is so busy and I've noticed that Zach and I have less, and less, and less time together. I'm very angry about it. I know that sounds silly but it's not like I have even 5 friends that I can go out with and do things so he's really all I have unless I'm at work. We love spending time with Bailey but she sleeps with us. So, even at night when we go to bed we don't get to talk or cuddle or anything. I honestly feel like I'm about to have a breakdown. Physically I feel completely overwhelmed. I don't feel like my existence matters though I know that's not true. Don't you ever have that "I want someone to love me" feeling? I just want school to be out so that I will have ONE thing off my plate.

Oh, then in June summer school starts and it honestly terrifies me to teach 1st graders. I know, how silly. SO, we'll see how that goes.

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THANKS Lillie for showing me how to do this :)

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16 Months

UPDATE:
Here are some answers to your questions:
No, I didn't take these pictures, Zach's cousin did and she did a FANTABULOUS job :)
Yes, Bailey is most always this happy... We are SO blessed to have her!
Thanks for all of your comments.


Our little princess is 16 months old today! She is growing up so fast! Here are some pictures from the park...
You can click on the images to make them bigger :)




http://s440.photobucket.com/albums/qq122/melelane/Park/

Potpourri

Ok, I don't know what to call this post...
I'm in an INCREDIBLY bad mood today. I'm not exactly sure why but I am sure that I could sleep in my car tonight and avoid the rest of the human race without any problems. I absolutely adore my daughter. I think she is pretty much perfect. Today she has been REALLY whiny! She's cried or whined ALL day. I like to think I have a LOT of patience but these days I'm not so sure. When I was pregnant I don't think a day went by that I didn't pray for her to be well mannered and calm. The reason: I didn't think Zach would do well with a cranky baby. Now, I wonder if it was me who needed a calm baby. When she has days like this, I honestly don't know what to do. And, if that wasn't my only problem, I just feel horrible today. I have a stomach ache, I'm exhausted, I'm cranky, I hate the world... I'm not pregnant! I just need a hot bath and a nice kiss.

Anyway, while I'm on the subject of cranky I thought I'd at least make this entertaining. I just went to sonic to get a butterfinger blast (I know, I'm on a diet). Anyway, while I was driving I started thinking about all of the things we do that we complain about others doing. Here are a few examples...

1. Talking on your cell phone while driving (you know you do this)
2. Texting while driving (I am actually quite good at this)
3. Driving too fast
4. Driving too slow (both probably due to cell phone usage)
5. Waiting for someone to put their groceries in their car and sitting there in the parking lot behind them even if there is a line of cars just so that you can have their close parking place even though you are probably going to walk around the store for an hour anyway! (honestly I don't do this but I know people who do).
6. Putting coke in your child's sippy cup (even though you don't feel as bad b/c it's diet and you added about 60% water to it). I've done this more than once and it's something I SWORE I would never do! HOW COULD SOMEONE DO THAT?
7. Giving your child a cookie at wal-mart b/c she won't be quiet! (You know you do this, and complain when you see someone else doing it... believe me, when you have kids, you will do the SAME thing).

Ok, your turn! What do you do that you complain about other people doing?
PS. I also think it's funny that "texting" is not in the dictionary yet :)