Monday, December 15, 2008

The Worst Week

We are home now from a LONG weekend at my parent's house. It was not a fun, or a planned trip. Last Sunday, my sister called to say my uncle passed away. I wasn't extremely devastated because I didn't know him very well. However, I still felt very badly for my mom and her family. I know that they were close and death is so hard anyway. Wednesday was pay day! Zach and I went to wal mart to get Christmas cookies so that we could decorate with Bailey. About 8 o'clock we got another phone call. My grandpa died. I didn't know what to think, I still don't. I have never been so sad in all my life! So, Thursday we drove to Arkansas to be with my family. I honestly never thought grandpa would die. He was always so healthy until about a month ago. When we went to the funeral I just started at him. I kept hoping it wasn't real! I wished it wasn't real. I still don't think I believe that he's gone. I couldn't stand the thought of the casket being closed and it being the last time I'd ever see him. I didn't know anything could hurt this much and I still feel like I might not ever get over it.

3 comments:

The Pifer's said...

I've been praying for you. When I lost my grandpa 4 years ago it was so hard. My grandpa practially raised me, he was so much more than just a grandpa!!! I never thought I would get over it too to be honest, and there are times to this day where I still get emotional and I cry and talk to him. However I know he is in such a better place now, as well as your grandfather. You and I have some very special gaurdian angels watching over us! The pain will get better sweetie...you and your family are in our prayers during this time...keep your head up and just know your grandpa is looking down on you from above and wraping his arms around you telling you he is ok. Love you lots!

Ashley said...

I'm so sorry!! YOu are in my thoughts and prayers!!

Mimi said...

I lost my grandpa a while ago and it was the hardest thing I ever went through. I loved him so much. It does get better over time. You never get over it, but your life goes on. I am so sorry for your loss and I will pray for you and your family.