Done!

Today is CD 9 Clomid Day 5. I finished! Day 4 was GREAT. I felt really good most of the day. I think I'm having some blood pressure issues because several times, I felt really bad and had some split seconds of feeling like I was blacking out. But, I was so happy to be rid of the headache! Today, it has graced me with it's presence again! I don't really think this is related to the clomid. I kind of think I haven't been drinking enough water. I hope the clomid works even though I've not always taken it with water.

I did get some great advice/help from the pharmacist this morning. I called to ask if I could take 1/2 a lortab (hydrocodone) with my clomid. She said she recommends I try Omega 3 with Fish oil. She said I should take 6-8 1200 mg PER DAY! But, she said they do the same thing as Metformin PLUS they are a natural anti-inflamatory. I sure hope it works. I guess it's also good for baby development in the womb. Anything that helps, I'll try it. So, I bought some this morning and they are HUGE but cheap so it's ok :)

I guess I'll update on Wednesday after my follicle scan. I'm really nervous but I am praying it will go well.

E-M-O-T-I-O-N-A-L me. (and an ADORABLE photo)

Ok, I am now on cycle day 7, clomid day 3. The headache is gone! YAYYYY! I'm still a little dizzy, and I haven't had any more cramping. But, today, I just want to cry. I'm not sad, I just feel really emotional. We went to wal-mart to buy groceries and Bailey was cranky because she was hungry so I stopped in at the McD's inside walmart and got her a hamburger. She acted MUCH better after getting some food in her tummy but I was a wreck. I was trying to shop for groceries without spending much money. I can hardly wait for school to start and normal paychecks again. I know come September we will be fine but until then, I feel really poor. So, there I am, standing in the pasta aisle and my child starts screaming for sponge.bob maccaroni. Of course, it's 60 cents more than just regular mac and cheese AND, I have four boxes at home of regular. But, I can't take it so I throw it in the basket and move on stopping for a second to wipe some tears. I know it's the medicine, I know it is but I can't talk myself out of these emotions. I'm still really positive. I can't even consider this not happening for us. I honestly feel that we are going to have another baby and I can deal with this. I'm so happy that I have only 2 days of clomid left.

Also, I have to share this picture with you. Zach made these for Bailey and I LOVE them. I am so in love with her! She makes my heart happy. :)

Headache, Dizziness, Cramping

Cycle days 5 and 6 have not been wonderful. I'd like to say right now that I'm not complaining. I understand the side-effects of this medicine and I am willing to take it to have another baby. That said, I am completely miserable right now. I don't even think this headache is related to the medicine. I really think it's because I have low progesterone. I started to worry about it becausse this cycle was really short and very light. But then I realized... the cycle I just had is in the past, we're working toward the next one. What happened during this one, really doesn't matter. I am SO optimistic about this cycle. I'm really praying and hoping and praying some more that we can give Bailey a little brother or sister in April. I am looking forward to cycle day 10! I will be done with my clomid!! It's been over 3 years since I took this stuff and I have NO idea how I felt back then. I don't remember any side-effects! Not that it means I didn't, I just don't remember. Please continue to pray for us!

What time is it?

I was so nervous about taking my clomid this morning. I kept thinking, do I take it with my met? Do I take it with my Pre-natal? Do I take it with food? Do I have to drink water? AAHH! What time is it? Do I need to make sure I write down what time it is and take it at the same minute EACH day? AAAHH! I have a meeting to go to on Friday. Will I have to make sure I remember to take it at the same time during my meeting? Should I set an alarm on my cell phone?

SO, here is what I did. Ate a slice of peanut butter toast with strawberry jelly, took all three pills in the same swallow, WITH COFFEE, at 11:14 AM. I have to just believe this will work. I've already given the hubs next weeks "schedule" haha. I really appreciate all of your prayers. I didn't forget how hard it was when I wanted a baby before Bailey but those feelings have been under a rock for a while. Now, they are coming back and I am scared.

Documenting

I've been documenting EVERYTHING about this cycle on a blog draft. Tomorrow I start the fertility medicine. I know it's only day 4 but when I was trying to get pregnant with Bailey I remember constantly searching for early pregnancy symptoms. So, this time, I decided I would start documenting from day 1. PLEASE pray for us. I really want a positive outcome!

Right on time

So, I did start right on time! Can you believe it? Yeah, me either. Anyway, I start the clomid on Tuesday. I'll keep you posted on my mood and if my husband can stand to be around me by the time I'm done taking them on Saturday :).

Adding to our family Update:

I went to the OB this afternoon to take a pregnancy test. I'm technically not supposed to start my cycle until tomorrow but you all know how that goes! None of us that struggle to get pregnant EVER have normal cycles. So, I got to the doctors office and started spotting. It's ok because on the way, I prayed that whatever happened, I would have peace about it. As soon as I went into the bathroom to pee in the cup, I knew I wasn't pregnant. I was ok. Partially because Bailey was with me and she was VERY distracting b/c she was terrified of the elevator and then terrified when she realized where we were b/c she HATES Dr's offices.

Anyway, I'm not pregnant but I did get some good news. (Well I guess it's good). I am scheduled for a Folli scan on Aug. 4. I'm REALLY nervous. I've NEVER had a folli scan before and they are going to check for cysts too. Please, please, please pray that everything goes well. I know a good folli scan doesn't guarantee a pregnancy but I'd much rather see good follies than hear that I have a blocked tube. I also was given clomid that (as you all know) I start on days 5-9 of my cycle. I'm REALLY feeling optimistic about this cycle. Please say a prayer for us!