Provera day 6....
Finally did what it was supposed to do! The side-effects were not side effects at all. I think I just felt bad in general that first night. So, for now, just mild-light spotting. I'm hoping by Wednesday I can consider it CD1! I feel good about getting to this point though. Ahhh, the joys of being a "broken" woman!
Monday, May 24, 2010
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Not, Why I do it, Wednesday
Ever taken Provera?
I just started taking it last night. I know that really shouldn't be long enough for me to feel something. But, medicine REALLY effects me. I don't know why. If I am going to have a side effect it will happen almost immediately! So, last night after my first dose I felt REALLY bad. I obviously have VERY low progesterone and had blood work done yesterday to verify that I STILL have low progesterone.
But, here's something I don't understand:
My doctor explained to me that you have 2 phases to your cycle.
You have the estrogen cycle and then if you don't get pregnant you have a progesterone cycle.
This is where I get confused. She also explained to me that when you are pregnant they WANT you to produce progesterone. So, how can taking it induce a period? But, I guess they know what they are doing! Also, the bottle says, "DO NOT TAKE IF YOU ARE PREGNANT" but the doctor told me that there is a possibility I will ovulate WHILE I take it and that's ok. If I get pregnant it won't hurt the baby???
Either way, I haven't had a cycle since March. I'm looking forward to having another cycle so that I can chart if things are working well. Lets just GET ON WITH IT!
I just started taking it last night. I know that really shouldn't be long enough for me to feel something. But, medicine REALLY effects me. I don't know why. If I am going to have a side effect it will happen almost immediately! So, last night after my first dose I felt REALLY bad. I obviously have VERY low progesterone and had blood work done yesterday to verify that I STILL have low progesterone.
But, here's something I don't understand:
My doctor explained to me that you have 2 phases to your cycle.
You have the estrogen cycle and then if you don't get pregnant you have a progesterone cycle.
This is where I get confused. She also explained to me that when you are pregnant they WANT you to produce progesterone. So, how can taking it induce a period? But, I guess they know what they are doing! Also, the bottle says, "DO NOT TAKE IF YOU ARE PREGNANT" but the doctor told me that there is a possibility I will ovulate WHILE I take it and that's ok. If I get pregnant it won't hurt the baby???
Either way, I haven't had a cycle since March. I'm looking forward to having another cycle so that I can chart if things are working well. Lets just GET ON WITH IT!
Thursday, May 13, 2010
Storms/Updated :)
So, DH informed me that I had a typo in my post. I typed that she would call me in some metformin when I meant to say she would call me in some CLOMID! :)
So, I got to work this morning only to find out that school was cancelled due to the major storms early this morning. Several of the elementaries in our district didn't have electricity so they closed school. Too bad I didn't get to sleep in. But, at least I get a day off :)
So, I got to work this morning only to find out that school was cancelled due to the major storms early this morning. Several of the elementaries in our district didn't have electricity so they closed school. Too bad I didn't get to sleep in. But, at least I get a day off :)
Speaking of a day off... I had taken yesterday off to go to the doctor. It was time for my Oh-so-fun yearly "well-woman" visit. I went to a new doctor recommended by a friend. My friend just had a baby in January and said that she LOVES this doctor. I had NOTHING to lose because I have the WORST luck picking doctors and I knew she couldn't be worse than what I'd dealt with in the past. However, my fears were completely erased when I met the doctor. She was completely WONDERFUL! I explained all of my previous history with her. I told her about my PCOS (how I thought it was a cop-out when I was first diagnosed), I told her about my low progesterone and how I can't afford it anymore, I told her about my lack of a cycle since March and told her that DH and I would like to have another baby. She listened! Really listened! I have to go in to have some blood work done but only because it's been so long since I've had any. But, she gave me some provera to start my period, upped my Metformin, and then she said some magical words... If you are not pregnant in 3 months, we will call you in some CLOMID! I said, 'THANK YOU!" She said it was completely up to ME what route I choose to take. She said she doesn't need me to wait the usual year before starting fert meds considering I have a 2 1/2 year old and I've been through all of this before. I'm THRILLED. She was GREAT! I'm so thankful to have found her! I feel like this is one "Storm" in my life that is being removed!
I leave you with this: "Princess Benji"
(our dog is a boy, Bailey wanted him to be a princess) :)
Saturday, May 8, 2010
MIA
I know it's been forever. Hello blog world (all 5 of you, lol). I know I've been missing and today I just don't feel like posting but I promise to post sometime this weekened. I'm fine, just been busy and really tired!
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
Why I do it, Wednesday (and giveaway)
Please head over to Tiffany's blog for a give-away.
On today's "why I do it, Wednesday" I am going to discuss diet! The dreaded word! I have been thinking for several days about what my next "WIDIW" post would be about. And, I know this may sound silly but I actually prayed that God would give me something. Then, this morning while I was getting coffee in the office, it hit me.
I was talking to the counselor who said that at home she is down to only decaf. So, when she got to school she just had to get some "real" coffee. Then I said to her. "When I was pregnant, I only drank decaf and it's all I had at home. One day when my parents came over my mom asked where my coffee was. I said oh, it's right here. (pointing to the decaf). She said "Melody, that's not real coffee."
The counselor and I both laughed and headed our own directions. Then a thought suddenly hit me so hard that I almost said it out loud to the air. (or whomever might be listening)...
When I was pregnant, I had gestational diabetes and I was VERY strict on my diet doing anything and EVERYTHING to make sure my baby would be protected. The "diet" was actually very easy. I got to eat several small meals per day and I didn't get hungry as often. Sure, I wanted sweets sometimes but as long as my sugar was stable I could have a candy bar every now and then. However, as soon as Bailey was born, I went back to my regular diet.
WHY?
It hit me this morning that it makes NO sense for me to work so hard to protect my baby girl but then NOT protect her mommy after she is born. She needs me as much as I need her. So, why should I not take care of myself now that she is here?
I guess this post is more of a why I don't do it, Wednesday. Still though, it's easier not to diet... But what if I'd said that when I was pregnant?
I am really going to ponder this and work on it this week, month, year...
On today's "why I do it, Wednesday" I am going to discuss diet! The dreaded word! I have been thinking for several days about what my next "WIDIW" post would be about. And, I know this may sound silly but I actually prayed that God would give me something. Then, this morning while I was getting coffee in the office, it hit me.
I was talking to the counselor who said that at home she is down to only decaf. So, when she got to school she just had to get some "real" coffee. Then I said to her. "When I was pregnant, I only drank decaf and it's all I had at home. One day when my parents came over my mom asked where my coffee was. I said oh, it's right here. (pointing to the decaf). She said "Melody, that's not real coffee."
The counselor and I both laughed and headed our own directions. Then a thought suddenly hit me so hard that I almost said it out loud to the air. (or whomever might be listening)...
When I was pregnant, I had gestational diabetes and I was VERY strict on my diet doing anything and EVERYTHING to make sure my baby would be protected. The "diet" was actually very easy. I got to eat several small meals per day and I didn't get hungry as often. Sure, I wanted sweets sometimes but as long as my sugar was stable I could have a candy bar every now and then. However, as soon as Bailey was born, I went back to my regular diet.
WHY?
It hit me this morning that it makes NO sense for me to work so hard to protect my baby girl but then NOT protect her mommy after she is born. She needs me as much as I need her. So, why should I not take care of myself now that she is here?
I guess this post is more of a why I don't do it, Wednesday. Still though, it's easier not to diet... But what if I'd said that when I was pregnant?
I am really going to ponder this and work on it this week, month, year...
Friday, April 23, 2010
Na Na Na Na Na Na Ooh, sugar sugar...
I will FOREVER be amazed that she can push a chair to the other side of the room without me hearing her! She SURE was "sweet" last night :)
Thursday, April 22, 2010
No Apologies...
I know I don't have to apologize for this but since it could possibly offend someone, I will. I am a republican. COMPLETELY RIGHT WINGED! I don't understand why abortion is even an option for anyone, and I don't understand why I "get" to pay for other people's healthcare when my husband and I work hard for our money! I don't understand why insurance companies will NOT pay for birth control but WILL pay for you to have as many children as you can have. I don't understand why I "get" to pay for unwed mothers to continue to produce children and never have to pay a dime for their OB appointments and then also get free food for themselves AND the children after they are born and yet, the insurance company doesn't want to pay FOUR dollars for my clomid when I will NOT be getting ANY free food and will still pay ALL of my co-pays AND my percentage of the hospital bills after my children arrive. That is, if I am able to have more children...
Enough about that. I'm very angry today, and here is why:
Saturday evening, my parents drove into town and took us to dinner. Us being my 2 sisters, Zach, Bailey, and myself. We had a great dinner. Bailey hadn't had a nap so she sweetly fell asleep at the table and when it was time to leave, I picked her up but it woke her and she was pretty fussy. We said our goodbyes and headed out the door. On the way, as I was holding my sleepy child, I slipped on a water spill and down I went. Right there in the middle of the restaurant, dropping my child, everyone staring at us, we were both on the floor. Very shortly, thereafter, a waiter came to start wiping up the mess. My mom, realizing I had not come outside yet, came back in to look for us, saw the boy pick up the paper towels and begin cleaning, and helped me up. The manager was VERY sorry and had me fill out an incident report right there. Bailey was screaming and it was quite a sight! At first, I really thought we were both fine. I do not want to be that person who goes to the doctor (free or not) if I don't have to. However, I really started getting sore on Monday morning. I called THREE times to the claims office at the restaurant to tell them that I (and Bailey who had started complaing of her leg and bottom hurting) needed to see a doctor. THREE calls and the woman wouldn't call me back. Finally, I called and left a message saying that I had made an appointment for both of us and guess what? She called me back within 15 minutes. She said that they are not responsible for my fall because the waitor was already cleaning up the spill when I fell. I politely explained that had he been on his hands and knees at the time of the fall, I would have fallen ON him. She said "yes, that's what I thought too." However, they are not taking responsibility. She told me to have my attorney call her!!!!! So, Z located an attorney and I proceded with my doctor visit. I decided I would call and have Bailey go to my appointment with me so that we could both be seen at the same time. However (and you will NOT believe this) the doctors office said "No, we will not see you." SERIOUSLY!? How can you turn a patient away when any non-working, non-taxpaying citizen can come in and pay nothing? So, now I am tired of this whole process and feel like I should just deal with the pain and go on with my life. I am so irate right now. How could this have happened to me when I did NOTHING wrong. I was NOT threatening to sue or even have a million tests run. I just wanted an x-ray and to have my baby checked out. What's wrong with trying to be a good mother??? I could scream right now!
Enough about that. I'm very angry today, and here is why:
Saturday evening, my parents drove into town and took us to dinner. Us being my 2 sisters, Zach, Bailey, and myself. We had a great dinner. Bailey hadn't had a nap so she sweetly fell asleep at the table and when it was time to leave, I picked her up but it woke her and she was pretty fussy. We said our goodbyes and headed out the door. On the way, as I was holding my sleepy child, I slipped on a water spill and down I went. Right there in the middle of the restaurant, dropping my child, everyone staring at us, we were both on the floor. Very shortly, thereafter, a waiter came to start wiping up the mess. My mom, realizing I had not come outside yet, came back in to look for us, saw the boy pick up the paper towels and begin cleaning, and helped me up. The manager was VERY sorry and had me fill out an incident report right there. Bailey was screaming and it was quite a sight! At first, I really thought we were both fine. I do not want to be that person who goes to the doctor (free or not) if I don't have to. However, I really started getting sore on Monday morning. I called THREE times to the claims office at the restaurant to tell them that I (and Bailey who had started complaing of her leg and bottom hurting) needed to see a doctor. THREE calls and the woman wouldn't call me back. Finally, I called and left a message saying that I had made an appointment for both of us and guess what? She called me back within 15 minutes. She said that they are not responsible for my fall because the waitor was already cleaning up the spill when I fell. I politely explained that had he been on his hands and knees at the time of the fall, I would have fallen ON him. She said "yes, that's what I thought too." However, they are not taking responsibility. She told me to have my attorney call her!!!!! So, Z located an attorney and I proceded with my doctor visit. I decided I would call and have Bailey go to my appointment with me so that we could both be seen at the same time. However (and you will NOT believe this) the doctors office said "No, we will not see you." SERIOUSLY!? How can you turn a patient away when any non-working, non-taxpaying citizen can come in and pay nothing? So, now I am tired of this whole process and feel like I should just deal with the pain and go on with my life. I am so irate right now. How could this have happened to me when I did NOTHING wrong. I was NOT threatening to sue or even have a million tests run. I just wanted an x-ray and to have my baby checked out. What's wrong with trying to be a good mother??? I could scream right now!
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