So Sleepy

My Bailey doesn't want to nap anymore.  She's 4 so it's not like this is a huge deal.  But she has always taken an afternoon nap.  However, the past week, she is NOT interested!  We have been going to bed a little earlier at night because of this and because at 35 weeks pregnant, by 8:30 I'm about to fall over!  I hope this is just a phase becuase when sister comes, I will want to nap!  2 other things about this sleepy issue: 1. I take phenogren almost every day for nausea.  It really drains me.  I didn't have to take any yesterday but I had to take 1/2 of one this morning and I'm having trouble staying awake at work.  Luckily, my students are working on an assignment that we started yesterday and they are working away without much assistance from me.  2. Bailey is starting pre-k in the fall and they have an hour rest.  I'm not too concerned b/c she has NEVER been on a good schedule and I think once she is, she will need that hour nap during the day.

And on a totally different topic:
I went to Burger.King this morning for breakfast (I HATE their burgers but I love their breakfast sandwiches).  The delivery truck was there and he couldn't get between my car and the car behind me (b/c BK is literally the SLOWEST place on Earth, the cars were piling up).  So, he knocked on my back window and motioned me to inch up a little so that he could get by... which I did.  So, he proceeds to move the dolly between my car and the car behind me and totally rams into the back of my car.  I jumped out to check the damage and didn't see any.  Still, Zach is not happy and filed a complaint with them.  So, we'll see what happens.

I heart her dimple!

Friday Appt.

Since I am diabetic, I have to have a non-stress test done every Friday until baby comes.  Note to self: DON'T WEAR A DRESS!  I had to raise my dress up to my boobs for the nurs to attach the bands to my belly.  Baby girl did well and appears not to be under any stress.  I gained another pound so I'm up 4.  However, I did drink 120 oz on Friday before my appt.  I don't know if it's the nausea or the diabetes, but I'm thirsty all the time.  Anyway, the doctor was pleased with my weight gain.  I have another non-stress on Friday and then the following week, another ultrasound.  Hubby is also having a baby shower at his school.  They aren't doing the whole sit-in-a-pink-decorated-room-and-open-frilly-gifts though :)  They are taking him to dinner and bringing diapers (which is SO OK with me).  Anyway, I will be 35 weeks tomorrow and the doctor says that if I go into labor on my own any time from 35 weeks on, we should be fine!

34.2

According to yesterday's ultrasound, Adilyn weighs 5 pounds 2 oz.  IF she were to gain a pound per week until I reach 39 weeks, she would weigh 10 pounds!  However, I will have another ultrasound at 36 weeks and the doctor says if she is getting big, we will induce around 38 weeks :).  I don't really look as big as I feel like I look.  I'm hoping I've lost enough weight that I will look better when I'm done than when I started.  I have another dr appt on Friday so we'll see how much I've gained!  So far, 3 pounds...

Also, I am not sure why all of my pictures of this bathroom look lime. My shirt is lime green, the bathroom is mint!

When will it happen?

I find myself wondering what is going to happen as I near the end of this pregnancy.  And the big question is WHEN?  I have this horrifying feeling that I will be pregnant until I'm induced sometime around Feb. 25.  That doesn't seem so far away, does it?  I mean, it's only a month!  Today, I am 40 days away from my original due date!  But, we already know that's not going to happen since I have gestational diabetes.  So, at most, I am going to be pregnant another 33 days.  So, I sit here, wondering WHEN this baby is going to decide to come.  Ideally, she needs to wait until Feb. 12.  That puts me right at 37 weeks when she should be safe to enter the world.  And, honestly, I am MISERABLE and would love nothing more than for this to be sooner rather than later.  But, still, I fear it will be 33 days before the girl arrives.  I know that the only thing that matters is that she is healthy!  And after it's all over, I will not care how sick I am right now.  But right now, I am having a hard time focusing on that. 

Dear Adilyn,

We are going to meet you in a few short weeks (or, mommy is hoping they are short and go by WAY too fast)!  I think about you all the time and wonder if you will look like your sister or if you will look more like me or daddy.  I can hardly wait to lay eyes on you.  I know that the moment you are laid on my chest, the world will seem perfect.  Your sister can't wait to meet you either.  She talks to you and about you all the time.  She's a little jealous if we buy something for you (even if it's bottles) and we don't get something for her.  We are working on that.  I told daddy last night that it is going to be so fun when you are old enough to recognize Bailey and laugh at all the funny things she does.  I hope the two of you really love each other!  She is going to be a great sister and I am so thankful that God blessed us with you so that Bailey can have someone to play with!  Your daddy thinks that he might like to have a boy someday (and I might too) but there is nothing sweeter than a daddy who is smitten over his girls and that's how your daddy is!  He can't wait to meet you either!  You have SO many people who already love you so much.  Your Memaw Debbie is just about to go crazy waiting for you to get here.  She wants to buy you things EVERY time she goes to the store, just like she does with your sister.  On Monday we are going to go to the hospital to get another look at you.  I'm really excited to see how much you've grown!  Here are a couple things I hope for you: 1.  PLEASE be a good sleeper!  Your sister did not sleep all night long until she was 2 and a half!  Can you believe that?  2. I know you are going to be a sweet sweet baby and I'm afraid I will never want to put you down!  3. For the next few weeks, could we please lay-off the contractions?  They are really starting to hurt!  I expect that when it's time for you to come, but until then... OUCH! 
Oh Adilyn, we have so many plans for you!  We waited a long time for you and just can't wait until you get here, healthy and happy!

Love,
Mommy

1 month!!!!

One month from today, February 12, I will be FULL TERM!  YAY!  I don't think the baby is actually going to come on Feb. 12 but at least I know we are getting closer.  This week has been DRAGGING on for freaking ever!  I hope that the next few weeks do not drag on!  But, I got some Phenogren and some Zofran last night and I have not been nauseated since!  I will say, the phenogren knocked me flat out last night!  FLAT OUT!  I slept pretty well and feel a little groggy this morning but other than that, I feel great (which is something I have not said in a LONG time).  I'm still having some nerve pain in my right leg but that just comes with the pregnancy.  I can't wait to meet out little girl in about 6 weeks!

What a strange, strange 7 months!

Last night I told Zach of 2 things I am thankful for (not the only 2 things of course).  1. I am thankful that I was able to experience a completely blissful pregnancy with Bailey. 2. I am thankful that even though I am 90% miserable most of the time, I am thankful to be given the gift of another pregnancy and Baby Adilyn.

My pregnancy with Bailey was so easy it was borning (I'm extremely thankful for that after going through this one).  The most scary thing that happened was I stepped on a staple that had fallen out of the house from our Christmas lights, and I had to get a tetanus shot.  No big deal.

This past 7 months has been a WHIRLWIND of experiences.
1st, around the time I should have started my period (actually the day I should have started) I did.  Or, I thought I did.  I was in Oklahoma City at a teacher training and I started bleeding.  So, of course, I assumed I was not pregnant.  But it was different.  It would start for a couple hours and then slowly fade to nothing.  This went on for a week!  When I got home from teh 2 day workshop, Zach just had this weird feeling I was pregnant and had me take a test (even though I told him I had started bleeding).  The test was positive but it honestly looked weird.  It was a dollar tree test and the line was diagonal (not straight) and it looked like it had just bled over from the test line.  So, I disregarded it.  A week later, on June 28th, I took another test.  It was positive too.  This time, though, it was a normal looking positive and I still disregarded it.  (What was I thinking)?  So, I ran to wal-mart and bought 3 more tests... the good kind.  Within 10 seconds I had a dark pink line.  I was shocked.  I stood in the bathroom and cried for a minute.  Then, I took the test out to the living room and showed it to Zach.  He was completely calm and acted like he never doubted it.

Then, the scary stuff started.  I knew it wasn't normal for me to be bleeding on and off.  But, I wasn't too worried b/c I kept taking tests and they were positive.  But the morning after I finally believed I was really pregnant I called the doctor and went in for blood work.  That's when I found out my progesterone was low... way low... miscarriage low.  I immediately started progesterone pills (which are not cheap by the way).  And a week later, we went in for an ultrasound where we saw an empty sac.  I was DEVASTATED.  More blood work and a phone call later, the doctor said my pregnancy wasn't viable and I needed to have a D &C.  She said "You can just try again."  REALLY!  Try again!  Do you know how long it took me to get pregnant?  So, I cried, I went to bed and cried and prayed.  An hour later I knew things were ok.  I just felt like God said, "I gave you this baby, he/she will be fine!"  That same weekend we were in Arkansas visiting my parents and Zach had to take me to the ER for an ear infection.  They also did an ultrasound and told me that my baby had a heartbeat!  I was beyond thrilled.  But, all of those scary things really affected us in a negative way.  We have worried about this baby ever since then! 

Yesterday, I spent the day in Labor/Delivery getting monitored.  My blood pressure was acting weird and my sugar was high.  After 3 hours they sent us home telling me I was dehydrated and not eating enough b/c I have Ketones in my urine (which means I'm hungry).  But, I'm SO nauseated ALL the time that I can hardly keep any food down.  This morning I called to get some anti-nausea pills.  I'm so worried about my blood sugar staying normal.  My back constantly hurts, I'm uncomfortable, and I keep throwing up!  And still, I am overjoyed to tears that in less than 6 weeks, our little girl will be in our arms!

Happy 4th Birthday

Today, our baby turns 4!  Four years seems like SO long and yet I feel like she was just born.  She has grown from a tiny little 7 pound 8 ounce, jaundiced, bald, baby, to a beautiful long-haired, hilarious, smart little girl.  I honestly don't remember much of our life without her!  She definitely made things brighter, happier, funnier and I can't begin to tell you the love I have for her.  She is NOT perfect and she has her ugly moments.  But, she is mine, and we love her more than life!  She is the most beautiful little girl God could have given us.  I feel so blessed to be her mommy. 

We love you Bailey, Happy birthday!

quick update

I am miserable!  I am EXTREMELY grateful for this baby growing inside me!  I prayed for her and have wanted her for a long time!  I dreamed about her before I ever got pregnant.  So what I am about to say is not in complaint of having another baby.  But, I am completely miserable!  I had the easiest pregnancy with Bailey.  I was never sick (maybe 4 times total).  I was well rested, I slept well until the end, and I had no aches and pains.  However, when they did my epidural with Bailey they did some permanent damage to my back.  So, this time, things have not been easy.  Baby is really pressing on my sciatic nerve (sp) and I've started having some intense contractions and a lot of swelling.  So far, my sugar is under control.  But physically, I am BEAT!  I don't want Adilyn to come before Feb. 12!  That is when I am officially full term (or 37 weeks).  But, honestly, I don't know how I am going to manage this pain for the next 5 weeks!